valtunes

i often find myself making a soundtrack of my life... you know, like in the movies. (i guess this is why i spent an unnecessarily long time working on background music for this blog.) for example, my volleyball coach in high school used to get pissed because i was always asking if we could turn on music during practices... she said that it distracted us, but it really made me feel bad-ass! i mean, come on, "rocky" just wouldn't have been the same if we watched him run up those stairs while listening to his panting, the patter of his tennis shoes, and the city traffic.

although it is sometimes an adrenaline booster, most of the time it is an emotional soundtrack... something from "hope floats" or "a walk to remember". i often wish every sentimental talk and good-bye would end with the fading-in emo, which contained all of the words that were too cliche to be said aloud. (because in reality, if you spoke the words of a song to someone, they'd think you were kinda creepy... it just works better when it's in a song and they hear it.)
somehow, artists can express my feelings better than i can.. not only on heartaches and love, but also on spirituality. i know that there are many christian bands out there, and more power to them, but i find the majority of my spiritual influence through main-stream songs. there's just something about finding a song, listening to the lyrics, and really connecting. many times, i spend (ironically) quiet time writing down lyrics of songs, and applying them to my faith. here's a "conversation" between me and God that howie day captured wonderfully... i feel like i deserve some part of this copyright!

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you

I'm open, you're closed
Where I'll follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind,
I somehow found you and I collide

I'm quiet, you know,
You make the first impression
I've found I'm scared to know,
I'm always on your mind.

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
Somehow find you and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find, you and I collide
You finally find, you and I collide

anyway... i guess the point is that it's very therapeutic and you should try it!